What wasn't the hangup? That might be an easier question to answer.

My church and my family think it's wrong. Everyone I went to school with before I came here thinks it's weird. I ... don't know what I think, but I feel weird. I want to and I feel like I shouldn't want to. I'm scared to and I feel like a coward for that. I'm afraid if I don't I'll still be hurting you; I'm afraid if I do, I'll... Something. That part, she couldn't even answer.

She shook her head and said none of that. "I don't know. I don't even know where to start. Or, um. How to start."